Rationalize

My ultimate defensive mechanism, which I rely heavily upon to make me cope, is rationalization. Whenever I encounter things that do not go in my favor, I'd rationalize it.

This time, however, no matter how hard I tried, I am hurting deeply inside.

I am hurting because neither of them did tell me. I know I shouldn't, because I would probably have done the same as they did if I were them. I am still hurting inside though...