Honesty

We desire to be understood and we try to be as honest as possible, but honesty is a two sided blade...
Wanting to have you being honest is like watching a scary movie when I was eight. I want to know what happens, but knowing it will horrify me and keep me up at night.

Can we promise each other to always be honest and never hurt each other in the process?

Temperature

Is it true the people who are from colder areas are slow to warm up compared to people who are from the tropics?
The temperature makes people of colder areas a little more standoff-ish, and the warmer area people more affectionate.

I live in Los Angeles. A place that is just in between. We never get too warm or too cold here.

Maybe that's why I am apathic to many things. Maybe that's why my excitement is always lukewarm. Maybe that's why I am never too sad.

I should move to somewhere warmer...maybe that'll warm up my heart too.

A tub of dye...

Feelings for someone is like a tub of water from the beginning,
colorless...

As you get along more and more feeling arise for that person,
the colors are added to the water,
love is red,
happiness is yellow,
jealousy is green,
melancholy is blue,
and sadness is gray.

In the end, the unique color of mixture is what you feel for that person...

Most people after they are done with a relationship, they jump into another one...
and more colors are added to that already murky water.

The jealousy, hate, happiness, and hurt from the previous relationship gets transferred to the next person...
You don't know what you feel for the person is authentic anymore...

That's why I want to empty myself,
empty the dyes from you,
so I can start anew,
and give the most authentic feelings of me to the next person...

I am emptying you out...