Am I to understand that there is no pure friendship between gay men? If I offered someone a place to stay when they are drunk or anything, that there is an automatic retribution in sexual favors?Sometimes I really don't want to have sex. I am still hung up on the last guy who was here. Note this, I am not someone who sleeps around. The number of men I've slept with within the last 10 years could be counted by all the fingers in one hand.
Lately a friend came for a visit. In the middle of the night I noticed him wedging towards me on my bed. I know it's stupid to sleep in the same bed with someone especially if you just met the person, but I tried putting him on the couch, but he wanted to sleep in bed and practically dragged me in the bed with him despite the fact that I made a floor bed for myself using my blankets.
I felt his hands feeling up on me. Maybe it's the loneliness, maybe I am doing it out of spite, but when he kissed, I kissed back. Of course, things got out of hand at the time. In the middle of the kiss, I realized I didn't want to do it anymore, but out of courtesy I kept going. Sure, the body felt good, but the mind is wishing he were someone else...
Does this kind of thing happen often? Is it normal? I feel dirty........
